tonight...

tonight... the day i was born... 19 years ago...
i wonder whats in store for me... i dunno..
all i know is that the tonight... I'll be alone..
like I've been for the past 19 years...
cool... hahhah... looking forward to tomorrow...
have no idea whats in store...
i wonder... will my birthday wish come true?
if it does...
well..
it won't...
i should not kid myself...
no matter...
i have to thank the peenuts... you guys...
thanks for pulling me out... opening my eyes..
thanks for waking me up...
thanks for making me a red(ouch) indian... hahhah
i love you guys to bits...
smarties!!!!!

Cryings blades of steel...

hey...
Life is wierd...
very wierd...
my friends are finding love of their lives...
i just wish i can find one...
hahhah... stupid me...
i am being stupid ain't i?
well... just too bad...
i shall just carry on living lonely...
mhmm... lonely Valentine...
here i come...

Tears...

Loneliness- Westlife
Loneliness is always looking for a friend
It found me once and it has been around since then
Loneliness is never waiting by the door
It sweeps right through and it will never be ignored
Why, why was I chosen?
Why am I left without?

[Chorus]
The love of my life, the love that I need
The love that they say is in life for free
The love of dreams, the love that I want
Loneliness knows me by name

Loneliness knows everything I keep inside
My endless thought in the silence of the night
Loneliness is the one who made me see
Ain't nobody else who can make a change but me
Why, why was I chosen?
Why am I left without?

[Chorus]

Life is more and that would be the vacant space
The cried out tears and a never ending maze
I have found what only loneliness provides
A strength within knowing I will find

[Chorus] x 2

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Its time to move on...
It really is...
She loves him...
Why torture myself...
Just need time...
Something i have obsessed about...

She Loves Him...
Not Me...
I have to remember...
I need to forget...

....................

I love pain

hmm

blogger is slow today...
but, my day was made today...
though it was broken at first...
FIE FIE YOU DIE... never call xia...
still at macs la... waiting...
nvm.. stupid girl..

A Repeat

very short post... to feel pain is good... it means you are alive and you will make it through...
pain... is what separates reality and fantasy...
pain is what keeps me real..
pain is what keeps me cool
pain is what keeps me calm
pain is what keeps me collected...
pain is what personifies me...
its who i am...
its who i will always be...
pain is a constant reminder...
to keep my distance...
i love pain...